Excuses excuses, yes this blog is as stale as the loaf ends you never eat but there are reasons for this, real ones...well OK, some real - some made up and then hidden from! The fact is, my kids are bigger now and I am now in a position to stop faffing about and get this business moving and shaking into something bigger and better. So why haven't I? Well I could cite lots of mitigating circumstances, health issues, commitments blah de blah but the real truth is... I am a chicken - bok bok bok!
What if I'm not good enough? What if my brain falls away like wet cake again and I can't cope? What if no one wants my stuff? What if they do want it, buy it and then it all drops to bits? (I dreamt that one!) What if I don't know what I'm doing and mess it up? What if I go to meet people and they hate me? Any of these things could happen so just in case I will sit on my hands and do nothing, nothing at all - because I am a chicken.....BOK bok bok bok!
I haven't got my website sorted yet therefore I can't change my email address yet, therefore I can't order business cards yet, therefore I can't approach any potential clients, apply for funding, trade fairs and other events yet. All this I convince myself is completely true, totally unavoidable, just how things are - except I know it's not, I'm just a chicken - bok BOK!
Seriously though, I know that there is a legitimate mental health reason for my avoiding things the way I have been recently and my flippancy about it is really a long overdue, self-administered kick up the butt! I am most likely writing this rather self-indulgent post as a form of catharsis despite my usual aversion to over-sharing but if I don't face up to things and get to work soon I will never go on holiday ever again. This would be much, much worse, both for me and all those in my immediete vicinity (ask anyone who was near me at the end of the seven airport-free years - it was ugly!).
So, coming up for me soon will be *drumroll* a new website with a shop, some new wholesale catalogues, a newsletter, some enhanced and glorious new(ish) branding for my range and everything getting generally pulled together into something that means business and looks like it does! I'm starting with a review of our current online presence with Big Cartel up first so you will be relieved to hear that this post will be shortly followed by some normal work related ones about what's happening with the new, improved Wychbury - relax, I'm done sharing now, many thanks for indulging me!
Big love, Paula x
PS I would very much like to thank Craft Soup and especially the amazing, inspiring ladies of the admins group past and present for the endless support and friendship, without whom this unprecedented display of self examination would not have taken place! Love you mad lot, please don't ever leave me pxxxxxxx
8 comments:
Bok Bok!! We admins will never leave you - you are stuck with us no matter what :) Small steps are all it needs and when you look back you will realise that you are already a mile down the road. *pep talk over* :D
:-) You'd know all about chickeny things Lynsey!! Always glad to be in that lobster pot Kirsten was talking about :-) Love ya px
Onwards, one day at a time. Would love to catch up properly. Soon? xxxx
I know how writing this would so not be 'your thing' but I'm so glad you did.
It's not just that writing it down helps put your thoughts in order, but you've got a list now, of the things you have to do and maybe it's subconscious but I find that once it's out there, you feel more determined to get through it.
And this way we can cheer on your progress!
Massive love xxxxx
Thanks Claire - yes yes yes - woudl LOVE to see you :-) and Kate, thank you - you know I am even a chicken about blogging and you are all for it!! I think this was a self-test, if I can blog it I can do it :-) And eeeeeeee it's nearly your birthday ♥ pxxxxxx
Eeeee! And you can totally do it - especially now you've written it in manageable stages.
I can't say for sure that I would have run away to Argentina, or done my degree (or even met Ian!) if it wasn't for blogging xxxxx
Paula, I salute you. I salute your courage, your vulnerability, your chickens - yes, every single last one of them! Those chickens have kept you safe in the past, and I love that you know the time has come to shoo them off and start collecting some eggs! (How far can I stretch this analogy?!) Good luck, my dear - we'll be there cheering you on as you bend and stoop to collect each blasted egg, and we'll all have a giant omelette at the other side ;)
Kirsten xx
I love you Kirsten - you fabulous fruitcake! pxxxxxxx
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